This weekend has been more of a challenge than an opportunity to unwind myself after a hectic week. Therefore, by Sunday midnight, I am no charged for the upcoming week. And doubt how I will endure the days coming up. I have been emotionally upset since Wednesday, because of a couple of things taking place in my life, simultaneously. And altogether they have conquered my senses so much that I have become feeble.
My scores in the recent modules have been highly disappointing mom and my conscience, not to forget. That is distressful when I consider its consequences in the long run. And by long I mean as long as the prof. Whatever the case is, there is no compromise on profs. They are a med student's worst nightmare! And unquestionably mine. How to get back on track and improve my performance, tops the list of things-on-my-mind-over-the-weekend.
My twisted love life didn't spare me much and I wasted a major fraction of my free time(which could be of great advantage if utilized wisely) thinking about it. But after contemplating so long, I have atleast gotten rid of it. And by the end of this weekend, the ghost of my imaginary boyfriend is dead. Now I have no one to date in my fantasy.
For me, depression and binge-eating work hand in hand. And it goes without saying that I have been gorging on alot of unhealthy things, so much that I have officially become a FOOD JUNKIE. And my mind is too exhausted to plan a detox this week. That means, there is going to be another week of unhealthy eating. GOD save me!
What can I do to let my hair down in a busy routine, is going to be my top search on google/bing this week. I expect activities that might fatigue me more. How about purely sleeping sessions? Well, if I type one more word, I will do doze off on this keyboard only. So I better sign out formally, and get my self into bed so that I shall wake up "fresh" in the morning. Yeah RIGHT!
XOXO ♥
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Dazzled Me
I experience days when I have a craving for food. And days when I crave for accessories. Nowadays, its the latter that is nagging me for a few weeks and will continue for a couple more. I want to buy everything that pleases my senses nowadays. With the almighty wedding coming up, I have pressurized myself with so many things, that I am on the verge of falling apart. The diet, acne issues, hair-fall, shopping, dress designing, altogether are a little too much for a miserable soul like me.
I have been on a strict 7-day diet for four days. And have been solely existing on fruits and vegetables. With that said, I am naturally going to crave for all the delicacies on the kitchen counter or whatever pops straight out of the oven. The only thing that keeps me going on is the phenomenal reduction in my weight I will thereby achieve, by the end of this week. And I can honestly go to any extent to get that.
The gorgeous boots, cut-out gladiator heels and platforms I get to see and read about, have completely taken over my mind. And I am hunting for them in malls like we have, which have such a narrow range to select from. This gives me immense discomfort when I dont get exactly what I want.
The whining does not end as yet. When it comes to classy makeup, again we lag way behind. Lisa Eldridge kills me every time she comes out with a stunning make-up tutorial which features the use of breath-taking products. I have been pondering over the option of ordering some from my aunt who is merrily spending her vacation in the States. But sadly it will be to my utility not until June. Till then I will have to deal with the substandard products in desi markets out here.
My incredible passion for perfumes and colognes has to drop in every discussion I make. And before cosmetics, I will give a staggering preference to the fabulous perfumes. Thats why I have ordered an entire set of Estee Lauder's Beautiful Bouquet. That makes me anticipate summer 2011 more anxiously.
When we come to jewelery, I am looking for chunky yet elegant pieces. Be it beaded multi-layered necklaces or dainty hoops, statement rings or charming aviators, I want them all. Any where I go, it gives me a harsh reality check that I dwell in a second-world country when these things are nowhere to be seen, even in the most populated urban areas! Bummer.
I will keep you updated with all of my shopping in the coming weeks, if I ever succeed in this arduous task of finding the non-existing items. Until then, XOXO ♥
I have been on a strict 7-day diet for four days. And have been solely existing on fruits and vegetables. With that said, I am naturally going to crave for all the delicacies on the kitchen counter or whatever pops straight out of the oven. The only thing that keeps me going on is the phenomenal reduction in my weight I will thereby achieve, by the end of this week. And I can honestly go to any extent to get that.
The gorgeous boots, cut-out gladiator heels and platforms I get to see and read about, have completely taken over my mind. And I am hunting for them in malls like we have, which have such a narrow range to select from. This gives me immense discomfort when I dont get exactly what I want.
The whining does not end as yet. When it comes to classy makeup, again we lag way behind. Lisa Eldridge kills me every time she comes out with a stunning make-up tutorial which features the use of breath-taking products. I have been pondering over the option of ordering some from my aunt who is merrily spending her vacation in the States. But sadly it will be to my utility not until June. Till then I will have to deal with the substandard products in desi markets out here.
My incredible passion for perfumes and colognes has to drop in every discussion I make. And before cosmetics, I will give a staggering preference to the fabulous perfumes. Thats why I have ordered an entire set of Estee Lauder's Beautiful Bouquet. That makes me anticipate summer 2011 more anxiously.
When we come to jewelery, I am looking for chunky yet elegant pieces. Be it beaded multi-layered necklaces or dainty hoops, statement rings or charming aviators, I want them all. Any where I go, it gives me a harsh reality check that I dwell in a second-world country when these things are nowhere to be seen, even in the most populated urban areas! Bummer.
I will keep you updated with all of my shopping in the coming weeks, if I ever succeed in this arduous task of finding the non-existing items. Until then, XOXO ♥
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