Memories Revisited

So much has changed. So much. Today, I was cleaning up my memory disk and getting rid of some irrelevant shots taken in the past, that were wasting up the sacred memory of my PC. It was then when I bumped into a really old album. Ok, it was nothing that had us from the stone age. Just three years old. But considering the acute changes in life since then, it is certainly vintage.

We have changed physically, emotionally and spiritually. Sometimes circumstances change us and other times the change is from within ourselves. I had nearly forgotten about the existance of my paternal family before I revisited this album. *Sighs* Innumerable moments shared together- of laughter, of feuds, of pleasure, of envy, of trust, of distrust. Regardless of the fact that we all dwell in the same city today, not more than a kilometer away, yet we choose to be indifferent to one another. We have conveniently gotten rid of the intimate bonds we share, that might be an ardous task for some. Had any one of us thirty not cooperated in this separation, we would be sitting today in somebody's lounge, enjoying the silly jocularity of our company. But turns out, that every one of us craved for it equally. As Ali says; Whatever helps you sleep at night. Thus I won't push them to reconcile.

Also it occured to me for the first time in my life, that all us cousins share alot of resemblance, especially the ladies (an absolutely inappropriate word for the kind of girls out there). The only factor that tells each of us apart is the difference in social status. Precisely, because of how we keep ourselves. Some like it shabby, for some elegance is the choice. But no one can be labelled classy- just not the type of grooming for that. I personally worship classy get-ups but am bound to elegance. Maybe I can work my way up for that sometime later in life. Viewing some old photographs of my own, I cannot deny the amount of change that has accompanied with my 14 kg weight loss. Ever heard of EXTREME MAKEOVER? I hope this might help me stand out from the crowd of dopplegangers! *fingers crossed*

Of time when Khadeeja ( my babysister) was dark-circles-free and had a natural rouge on her fair cheeks, life was much more challenging. And that explains my spiritual stability then. My career was undecided and I needed Divine Assistance in order to get through it successfully. But that does not exempt me from the obstacles of life today. Now it has narrowed down to a fewer hardships but they are alot more bleak. Maybe you can account it to the change in attitude, that has gotten ALOT more carefree since then. I haven't forgotten the time when every insignificant issue meant a world to me. Now, I hardly care. There is seldom an issue, that I care too seriously about.

Time flies. And I can see myself going through an album three years from now, present today, past then. God knows how much more malnourished will Khadeeja seem, how much more weight will I lose, will our family reunite, what will be my priorities then, will I be able to succeed in attaining spiritual stability that I am dying for today?

Three years later.